After my return from Camerun I have found myself

“I am the headmaster of a school. Initially, I became a teacher because I think I had good teachers, and children don’t piss me off yet (haha…). Everyone starts like that. The problem with teachers is, they study, and immediately, they teach things that they never experimented. Before entering the classroom, most of them never really tried to see the reality of the world out of the books. I decided, and it is my own choice, I respect everyone choice, to travel and see the world. 

I arrived in Cameroon. When I got there, everything was new to me. Corruption was everywhere, and I was asking myself, ‘Where am I?’ However, I met a lot of Cameroonians there. The majority of the French stay among the French, but I wanted to open up to the world. Once, I went for a long holiday to a village in the west of Cameroon. There was a funeral, but it’s not like what we understand, it’s more like of a commemoration. The event is huge, and you go to one place, then another. You get drunk, you go outside, you eat, as there’s always a pot with food. The next day, there’s more of an official event, to which chiefs of different villages came, and hundreds of people showed up. In general, I managed to be totally independent, as the trip is some kind of an initiation – from a child you become an adult. So, this trip has let me build my life, and understand my personality deeper. Who I am now is what I gained there, mostly.

The hardest moment of my story was the discovering of my sexuality; after my return from Cameroon, I have found myself. When I start rethinking my experience, sometimes there are very hard things, but it’s important to try to understand why they are this way. I saw so many people being racist, but I failed to understand how they have so much hatred inside. As a Christian and an educated person, I can’t understand it. As for me, a man stays a man, no matter if he’s black. So, if one tries to understand complicated things, not to say to himself, ‘This is an idiot, an imbecile etc.’, but asks ‘why?’, that’s when the curtain falls, the blindfold disappears. Of course, it’s not always possible to get there, but trying is a must. It’s too easy – to judge. My journey has taught me to put many things into question, myself included.”