“It was an unusual situation for me. It was exactly a year ago; I met a guy, and we spent several months together, which were very good. He was constantly asking me what I think about marriage, and I said, ‘Wow, OK…, Why not?’ But I wasn’t actually thinking about that, because I couldn’t think about marrying a person just after several months together, it’s unusual.
Once, it was on his birthday, we were having dinner, and he said, ‘I’m going to tell you something now,’ and that’s when I said to myself, ‘Oooh no, no, no… He will propose now.’ I mean, I liked him very much but still… And, you know, he told me that he was very ill, and his illness is… that is HIV. That was the turning point for me. Although he was very nice, he knew my parents and my friends, and we spent really great time together. In fact, we had several things in common: our group of friends, education, language, and so on. And then it was like, ‘Oh my God!’ I was sitting there and crying all night. It was like… Yeah, literally, the world just crashed, after one sentence.
At first, it was a melodrama for me, but today, even if I can’t imagine how difficult is it for him, I hope he will be fine. However, I can’t imagine how could I continue my life with him. He is sometimes very emotional, he doesn’t want to see people, he just wants to lie down and to look at the wall. Then, a couple of hours later he feels great again, and it comes and goes like this all the time, it’s too difficult for me.”